Table of Contents

Table of Contents

The philosophy of this book

Before you take the first bite

Understanding Powerlessness

Surrender isn’t “surrender”

I’m not insane, the disease is

     Dodging the Streetcar

     Dodging the Meteor

The disease – in the big picture

Inside the disease – teasing apart the threads

     Hunger Panic

     The Hunger Monster

     Food as reward

     Food as soothing

     Food as companionship

     Food to relieve boredom and generate “excitement”

     Food as love, as family bonding (happy memories)

     Food as parental rebellion (bad memories)

     Hopelessness – the inner defeatist

The defiance family

     Pure Defiance

     Comparison Defiance

     Rebellion Defiance

     A word about sponsors

     Keeping the Secret

     Fighting the internal authority figure

     People Pleasing and Peer Pressure

     Self-destruction

     Setting yourself up

     Dealing with the “inner miser”

     Perfectionism: Letting the disease give you a reason to binge 

Deeper causes: The long-term reaction to trauma

     Food as protection (physical)

     Food as protection (psychological/sexual)

     Fear of new sexual feelings and their ramifications

     The fear of being abstinent

     The monster under the bed: misdirection and buried discontent 

     The physical effect of food

     The Disease’s Many Voices

Lies our disease tries to tell us

Talking to the threads of your disease

     The Rewarder

     The Soother

Beneath the surface:  Dealing with long-term trauma

     Food as protection (physical)

     Food as protection (psychological/sexual)

     Self-Sabotage

Moving Forward

Aspect #1: Commitment to Action

Aspect #2: Getting in touch with your values

     Getting in touch with your higher self (or the God within)

     Writing exercise:  Why am I doing this?

     Writing exercise: Seeing a Future of Abstinence

Aspect #3: Commitment to Action

     Forewarned is forearmed

     Writing exercise:  Examining your food behaviors

     Envisioning a change in your food behaviors

     Writing exercise:  Changing your food behaviors

Aspect #4:  Becoming the Observer

     Starting the conversation

     Having the internal dialog with your threads

     Looking at the disease as a whole

Aspect #5: Defusion – A thought is not an action

Aspect #6: Mindfulness – Pausing to Examine

     What’s beneath the surface?

     Looking back at the previous exercise

     Denial:  beware of a cunning, baffling, and powerful foe

     Wrapping Up: Putting this plan into action

Another View of Some program concepts

     A stumble is not a fall

     Acceptance - You’re done hurting me

     Humility: Becoming a Human Being

     We are not defective

Some final words to consider

APPENDIX I:  Conversations with my disease

     The Hunger Panicker

     The Hunger Urgency patrol

     The Rewarder

     The Soother

     The companion seeker

     The Purely Defiant One

     The Sad Comparer

     The Rebel with a Cause

     The wannabe partier

     The beaten down relapser

     Mr. Forgetful 

     Mr. “Waste Not”

     The People Pleaser

     Mr. “Go Along”

     The Impulsive one

     The perfectionist

APPENDIX II:  List of Values